Is complacency the new happiness? Sometimes I feel like I'm so afraid of doing the wrong thing or having something bad happen that it's a huge relief if everything is bland and the same. It's a bothersome feeling, but I don't think it's enough to spur me into action. This may be one of the reasons I love videogames so much. All the big decisions and horrible failures can be erased through the handy reset button. That and the fact that I totally just stabbed a dude in the head and have no fear of being arrested, and no feelings of remorse (granted, I only assume these things naturally come with murder). I always have these grandiose ideas when I play videogames. For instance, I was just playing Soul Calibur 2 as Raphael, and totally wanted to take up fencing. I think I'd probably have to stop being a lazy fatass first. Or maybe that could be my thing, I'm the huge dude that fences. Unfortunately, it's *much* more likely that I'll build or paint a fence than take up the art of fencing, and even those are pretty lofty goals.
Not that I hate baseball, cause I really don't, but it's hard to watch Sportscenter during baseball season.
I think I might be getting fired from my job. Not for lack of effort or ability, but because theres rumors every store has to fire their weakest performer, and as the best performing store, I'm thinking Kevin might let me go since I only work weekends. I know Stephanie would freaking flip out, and life would be less than fun for a while, but it's always possible it could be the kick in the ass I need to start that "exciting new endeavor" I hear about all the time. Hopefully something like the game stores I've worked at, that really is the ideal environment for me.
I wish going to the movies wasn't so expensive. Lot's of movies out I wouldn't mind seeing. Fantastic Four and War of the Worlds were fun.
I'm gonna go try to distract myself, probably watch that episode of Family Guy that was on Sunday. Good stuff. Tadpole.....out.